My previous posts might’ve sounded like I’m in love with someone.

… LOL.

I’m not falling in love with anyone lol. I’m just saying. These days, it has become too easy. Before, I used to be a rock. Can’t move me. Most of the time, I was the girl who was hard to get. Most of you are probably like, “Who the fuck would go for your ugly bitch ass?” Yeah, I know. I’m pretty surprised myself. I rejected a couple guys before. Not a big amount, but enough to say that I was hard to get. Again, I didn’t reject guys as much as prettier girls did. I’m not that pretty lol, I’m sure a lot of you agree with that.

Anyway, even if I thought the guy was attractive, I’d decline. I was the girl who wanted a real relationship. Sure, relationships these days never last. But why jump into a relationship for it to just be short-term? So if you’re not ready for the real shit, don’t be in a relationship. What I’m trying to say here is, I’m the girl who wants to fall in love. What girl doesn’t? Like every girl, we lowkey want to have a happy ending. No matter how DGAF a girl is. No matter how tough she can be. Deep down inside, she wants to fall in love. That’s part of our nature. So back then, I wouldn’t just get with someone just to get with someone. I wouldn’t get with a guy, just to be labled their girlfriend. So far, I had pretty good relationships with 4 great guys who all are my ex’s now, but we’re all good friends. We just didn’t work out as a couple hahaha. But yeah, now-a-days, every guy who spits game at me (NOT EVERY GUY, but a guy that I think is attractive), I flirt back. I NEVER USED TO DO THAT. I still care about falling in love, but it’s sort of like Idgaf about getting hurt if I fall hard for someone who obviously doesn’t feel the same way. And the weird part is, I’d get over it.

I hung out with guys more often then girls… just saying, I don’t know how that relates to what I’m saying right now, but I just thought it would be nice to tell you lol.