Mom just left me to go to work early. Dad left, because he doesn’t want to take me to school. It’s 7:50 and it’s a 30-45 minute walk to school, from my house. Might as well just go to school when 3rd period starts because I don’t want to go to 1st or 2nd period anyway. Hell, I don’t even want to go to school so I don’t even know if I wanna go walk all the way there just for a whole day of nothing. But every single day counts, and I want to go to college… so I might end up walking at around 9.

They tell you to enjoy high school. I try. I really do. But how can you enjoy something so boring? High school has changed over the years. Learning is not as fun. It’s supposed to be. But why isn’t it? Unlike most people of my age, I like learning. But the fact that they’re treating us like robots — shoving so much information into our brains as if we can handle all that. Do they know how much stress that causes us? And the stress in our lives will never end because right after college, we’re going straight to work. No time to relax. So why do you think we ditch, do “illegal” things, cuss, and all that “bad” stuff? Because we’re trying to find ways to escape all the pressure. We’re not stupid. We know we all need to be “successful” in life. We know what we have to do. Go to school. Get what needs to be done. Set goals. Accomplish a couple extra things. And graduate. We know what needs to be done. We don’t need to be reminded.

But regardless of the work-load and the content of the work-load, I get shit done.

Honestly, they think our generation is shit. Well if we can talk shit about someone and still be homies at the end of the day, who’s the “bad generation” now? Back then, you talk shit, you’d get an automatic fist-fight. (We still have that now, but it’s dying out quick.) If I can talk about someone’s mom and still be friends with that someone at the end of the day, then it’s all chill. I can talk all the shit I want. (There were lots of wars going on back then if you’ve noticed. AND for stupid reasons, too. I did my research. We still have a war going on right now, but it’s not as bad as back then.) And if someone takes what I say seriously, then that’s their own fault. They’re the ones who’ll look bad. Not me. If they just brushed it off their shoulders, and went along with it, then everyone’s happy. Everyone talks shit. I had to learn that the hard way. Ready? Follow along. I used to be the girl who talked shit about people in the 6th grade, then learned that talking shit gets you in deep shit so I stopped talking shit about people and became a goodie-goodie that tried to be friends with everyone and never talked shit about anyone whatsoever (because I cared so much about my “rep”), then I realized that everyone talks shit and me just sitting there just made things worst because rumors would start that I said something but I really didn’t and then I’d end up talking anyway so I JUST STARTED TO NOT GIVE A FUCK. FUCK REPUTATION.

Bitches talk shit. But if you’re not THE shit, like me, then bitches ain’t talking about you. I only know I’m the shit because I have a grip of haters.

If you knew me in person, you know I never used to be like this. I mean I still have low-self esteem as it is. I’m not fishing for compliments, okay? My self-esteem IS REALLY THAT LOW. Be proud of me now because my confidence went up a level. Just like Yumi Doll said in her battle with KC Lyn, “If this was Call of Duty, I’m Private Miller calling in the missile.” … I don’t know how that has any relevance to what I’m saying. I just thought it would be nice to say it lol.

Yeah, if I didn’t make any sense what-so-ever — I apologize hahaha. I just kept going. I’ll probably read this over again and be like, “Why did I say that… why Chrystine why…” I probably don’t even mean half of what I’m saying here. Oh well, take something good out of it anyway. I’m gonna go put some clothes on because I just got out of the shower and was just in a towel while typing all this. Tmi? Don’t give a fuck. Bye bye. :D